Biyernes, Abril 5, 2013

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"Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ililipat through this post lahat ng thoughts and emotions na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Halos lahat sila sabay sabay na umaagaw ng atensyon ko. Bawat isa ayaw magpatalo. Kaya sa huli ako ang talunan. Right now, i have lots of questions in the back of my mind and unfortunately no one is here to answer them. Gusto ko na talaga umiyak ngayon dahil sa mga misfortunes ko ngayong araw na to kaso masyado na kong pagod physically at emotionally. Umaasa akong sana lahat ng to panaginip ko lang, para pwede ko pa mabago lahat ng nangyari sakin ngayon. If only i could turn back time."

Eto yung nasimulan kong blog kagabi kaso hindi ko na naituloy dahil na-mental block ako. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan i-share sa inyo kung paano biglang nasira lahat ng pangarap ko na sinabayan pa ng isang kamalasan. Two birds in one shot.

Una, nagkaron ako ng TRES na grade sa Total Quality Management subject namin. Maliban sa first time ko magkaron ng ganitong kababang grade, itong grade na ito rin yung nagwasak sa nagsisimula ko pa lang na pangarap. Maging Cum Laude pag-graduate ko (third year pa lang ako).


15.1 The College Dean \Branch Director, in close coordination with the University Registrar, shall recommend a student who completes his baccalaureate course with any of the following weighted average to be graduated with honors:
15.1.1 Summa cum Laude (1.19 to 1.00)
15.1.2 Magna cum Laude (1.44 to 1.20)
15.1.3 Cum Laude (1.75 to 1.45)
15.2 The guidelines on graduation with honors shall be as follows:
15.2.1 Only final grades shall be considered in the computation of the general average.
15.2.2 A student's final grades during his last school term shall be submitted thirty (30) days before the graduation.
15.2.3 In the computation of the final averages of a candidate for graduation with honors, grades in all accredited academic subjects in the curriculum shall be included.
15.2.4 Every candidate for graduation with honors must:
  1. Have carried the normal load prescribed in his curriculum, except in the last semester. In the night school, fifteen (15) units per semester shall be considered the normal load.
  2. Have completed in the University at least seventy-five percent (75%) of the total number of the academic units or hours required for graduation.
  3. Have been in residence for at least three (3) years immediately prior to graduation.
  4. Have no final grade lower than "2.5" and/or "Incomplete" in any academic subject whether prescribed or not in his curriculum which he/she has taken in the University, or in any other educational institution.
  5. Have no final grade of "5.0" in any academic and non-academic subjects prescribed in his curriculum which he/she has taken in the University or in any other educational institution.
  6. Have not repeated a subject in other educational institution.

Ayan. Nung nalaman ko yung general weighted average ko simula first year first sem hanggang third year first sem na 1.694 nagkaroon ako ng goal first time in my college life na maging cum laude man lang pag-graduate. Pasok grades ko sa bracket na pang cum laude, rank 4 pa ako sa room namin. :) I'm the man! Kaso lahat ng yun nasira ng dahil sa TQM grade ko. Bigla ako nawalan ng gana, yung feeling na parang wala na ring sense kung mag-aral ako ng mabuti this coming school year. Yun bang kahit uno ako sa lahat ng subjects ko e wala na rin silbi kasi hindi naman ako magiging cum laude. Gusto ko sana surprise yun sa mga magulang ko, kasi naisip ko parang yun na lang yung way ko of saying thank you sa pagpapa-aral nila sakin. Tapos biglang nawala. I asked my best friend what went wrong. Pero alam ko naman talaga kung ano ang nangyari kung bakit ganyan grade ko kaso hindi ako ganoong kalakas para harapin yung naging pagkakamali ko. Gusto ko isisi sa prof ko yung naging kapalaran ng grades ko pero alam ko naman na mas malaki ang naging responsibilidad ko kung bakit yun nagkaganun.

From this point, hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta, kung ano ang gagawin ko, o kung may magagawa pa ba ako tungkol dito. Should i do something about it, or keep it the way as it is?

Ikalawa, hindi pa ako tapos sa dilemma ko tungkol sa grade ko sa TQM, ng mapansin kong nawawala na pala yung iPhone ko! Tengene lang yan oh. Kailangan ba pag minamalas sabay sabay? hindi ba pwedeng isa isa lang muna? Ang hirap e. Call Center Agent din ako, just so you know. Sinasabi ko to kasi nung nalaman ko yung grade ko sa TQM e nasa office ako nun. Makikita naman kasi yung grades namin through OL. At sa sobrang depressed ko nung time na yun, hindi ko na napansin na may malikot na kamay na pala na kumuha ng iPhone ko sa station ko. wtf. Sinubukan kong tawagan yung phone ko pero wala na. Unattended na. Alam na!

Halos one year and four months din ang pinagsamahan namin ng iPhone ko. Tapos nanakawin lang? Mas okay pa sana na nasira lang e. Kaso hindi, ninakaw, sa office pa. Pambihira. Kapag nga naman tinamaan ka ng kamalasan, mapapa-P*TANGINA ka na lang.

Sa mga nangyari sakin, hindi ko alam kung ano na ang gagawin ko. Masyado akong mahina para harapin pa yung mga yon. Pero minsan, KAILANGAN DIN NG LAKAS PARA SABIHING MAHINA KA. Siguro yung depression ko ngayon lilipas din, pero yung mga nangyaring to sakin habang buhay na magmamarka sa alalala ko.

Huwebes, Marso 7, 2013

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march 7. 2013

“Pahimakas ni Donya Teodora”

With the outburst of ordeals and misfortunes, which Jose Rizal has faced, with the prejudiced eye of the conqueror, even before his downfall, a loving mother was already dying inside to see his child in such agony. If only she could switch places with him, she would. If only she could hide him away from the world to keep him safe, she would willingly take the risk. Nevertheless, she cannot.

In the stage play “Pahimakas ni Donya Teodora,” a kind of interminable love in a mother’s perspective was shown all throughout. The play simply put on view on what it is like to be the mother of Jose Rizal. At some point in the play, Donya Teodora recalled a story that she had told Pepe way back his childhood days, which is about an impish young firefly who desired to go near a flame, despite the admonitions of an older firefly. In the end, the firefly loses its wings and cannot be able to fly again. She related this story to his son, as Rizal tried to reach the flame, which will eventually take away his life. Rizal exposed through his writings Noli Me Tangere and El Filibusterismo the Church’s deep dark clandestine and The Spanish government maltreating the Filipinos, which made the friars to accuse Rizal of being heretic and filibuster. As said in the stage play, Rizal’s intellect had become his sole weapon in making primitive Filipinos fight for the cancer of society, though the expense for this was his own family’s safety. One part of that play that got me goose flesh was when Donya Teodora said that Rizal’s intelligence had become his way to loss of life, which turned out to be true. It could be recalled that this fear has been occurring to Donya Teodora several times when Pepe was still young, when she realized that his son was far from ordinary.

Nevertheless, what can a mournful mother do over an unresponsive cadaver? Nothing. All she can do is accept what happened and move on. For a fact, life doesn’t stop there. It is true that Rizal’s efforts and boundless love for the country had cost him and his family a miserable ending, but because of that, Filipinos achieved freedom. We all should be thankful for Pepe. If it wasn’t because of his hard-headedness, he wouldn’t go and study abroad and realize what his mother country had been missing since time immemorial. Rizal’s death had become the salvation of Filipinos from the evil conquerors and autonomy in their own country.

But if there is someone whom we should be thanking for, it should be Donya Teodora, because if wasn’t for her genuine love and guidance, Rizal wouldn’t be the man that he is now since then.


“Ang Huling Pahina”

Have you ever think if characters of a particular story liked the parts they play? What if characters of that story had their own chances to speak out and tell their creator what they wanted to happen, what do you think will they impart?

These questions has been the main point of view of the second stage play entitled “Huling Pahina” by three of the most unsightly and repulsive characters in Jose Rizal’s Noli Me Tangere who are Kapitan Tiyago, Donya Victorina and Donya Consolacion. If you still remember, Kapitan Tiyago was Maria Clara’s wealthy stepfather and whose neck was tied by the Roman Church, specifically by the friars. On the hand, Donya Victorina was a Filipino who is trying to conceal her identity and make everybody believe that she is one of the Europeans in the Philippines. Lastly, came the role of Donya Consolacion, who is according to the story, always smells like lady fingers (okra) and has an awful breath. These three characters met at the last page of the novel and trying to put out of sight with each other the purpose on why they are there. However, it is revealed somewhere in the middle part that they do have a common goal, to ask the creator as to why their characters end up the way they ended up. Alongside of the story, the three of them had been picturing of the endings they want for themselves. Until only it was then, the role of Tasyo came up and told the 3 that their characters cannot be changed. What is done is done. They ended up the way they should end.

Funny thing about these characters are that curiosity as to whom these characters Rizal was referring? These characters should know that the roles they are taking part are eye openers to the cancer of society that we should be fighting for. In my point of view, the characters end up they way they should be. Yes they may seem funny and unworthy in the novel, but without them, realizations about what is happening in reality would be a total blur.